Thursday, December 18, 2008

Infinite Possibility

I'll begin this with the qualification that I don't claim to be a master but I do believe we come here to embody our divine origins in the physical and that as a species we are moving ever closer to that realization. Mastery of our lives is attained by harmonizing with a higher level of consciousness. This higher plane is the realm of original Mind, call it what you will; Source, the Universe...I call it the Light. The ultimate truths of reality; love, joy, peace, prosperity lie here within this Mind, not in the distortion of our limited physical world.

We see these as intangible and unreachable because we live in the physical realm of illusion. It is illusion because it is only a reflection not reality and as we know by looking at a reflection in water and many mirrors, it is often distorted.

When we learn to mentally unite ourselves with the best things, the highest things, that is what we will experience in life. The superior solutions for health, love and power lie within us when we are willing to accesss them through linking to a higher lever of experience. To create a magical life we must deny what others call pragmatic thinking and see it for what it is, limited thinking. Such logical thought posited that man could never fly, or communicate across thousands of miles. We now know with certainty that such thinking though pragmatic at the time, was limited.

We must deny the reality of this world to live in the truth of a higher consciousness of belief in the availability of the best. We must respond to the question " Who do you think you are to believe you can achieve prosperity, love and joy" by saying " I am infinite possibility"

Monday, December 8, 2008


We come with glad tidings of News appropriate to your love of self. Much ado is made about love of others and the sacrifice of new birth that you commemorate in your world this Season. Yet we come speaking differently, with reminders of love....of yourselves.

Others will tell you to give to others in this Season of Revival of birth, but we tell you to remember to love deeply who you are. Invest yourselves as well in learning what most deeply brings you peace, brings you joy, brings you meaning, and spend time, even small bits of time doing such things as often as possible, with the intention of showing love for yourselves.

When you are tempted to put yourselves in way of harm such as imbibing those things you may have sworn off of such as richness of food or drink not desired, ask yourself - "is this a loving act toward myself"? When feeling angry, disappointed or frustrated with another or a situation and about to lash out, ask within - "how will I feel towards myself after I blow this steam outward, will I feel loving toward myself"?

When you stop in the moment and ask yourself - "is this love, does this feel loving...for me, much does change. Part of that change becomes more love displayed toward others also, yet this is not the reason we suggest it.

We suggest this little bit of selfishness, this love of self first, and then others, so that you will not be depleted. The well of love from which others drink is filled from within first. You cannot take a teaspoon to the well and then serve a thirsty man a cup of water.

You begin by quenching your own thirst first, by bringing the biggest vessel you can to love's Source and drinking deeply. No more teaspoons, not even cups, we say, begin with a few gallon jugs, then graduate to larger and larger containers that you fill yourselves up to the brim with self-love. Then you may serve a thirsty world.

Monday, November 24, 2008


Only ask for assistance and your newest opportunity for learning comes,
The newest lesson presents itself
Ask for it to come easily and gently
Gently, easily, joyfully
Learning doesn't need to be difficult
We make it so hard
Come from within instead of waiting for things to come from without
Feeling the essence is what truly matters
Going forward on our path with purpose despite outer contradictions
Believing, believing
Knowing for some of us our purpose arises anew in every moment
For others, it's unchanging theme
Resonates and unravels
Consistently throughout their lives
Their directional map set to on, always
Either way, the journey can be easy or hard
Make up your mind
Which will you have?

choosing Joy

Encompassing joy
I sit marveling
At the wonder surrounding me
Variety and complexity
Of people and situations
The smell of coffee and newspapers
Multitudes of realities, theirs and mine
Can we step into one another's and share momentarily?
Or shall I close my eyes and when I open them
Find that I have created an entirely new one for myself
Which includes them
Choices of worlds to live within abound
So many chosen unhappily before
I choose differently now

The Moment

I live in the moment it seems, until....
I move into the reality of others
Reminders of time,
The linear prison of thoughts and actions
Dedicated to fear of, not enough.

Reprimanding myself doesn't work
It only brings harm and disharmony

So I embrace it all,
The now, the then, the never
The almost, the may be, the will be
And come once more to this moment

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Frequency Leaning

Have you noticed that it seems easier to imagine negative events bordering on the bizarre as possibilities in our lives than it does positive ones? It was for me, for much of my life. Outrageously positive events were not the substance of my daydreams, they seemed so unlikely, even impossible. Yet, fortunately it came to me that it's as likely for those outrageously positive events to occur as the negative, just by the law of averages. If we give credence to the negative possibility, then the positive tendency must also exist.

But that still means there's as much opportunity for the negative as the positive. Maybe that's why some of us don't delve into the really good stuff when we visualize, we're subconsciously thinking that if we go to excess in the positive, if it doesn't work, we may end up with an excess of the better to just stay safe and not ask for, visualize or otherwise conjure up anything to wonderful.

It sounds silly, but I know this was somehow implicit in my process for a long time and I'm thinking it may be for others unconsciously as well. So how to tip the scales in the positive favor with no fear of the down side?

There's lots of methods out there, we all know about visualization, affirmation, "The Secret". I've decided to try another method that feels really good to me right now. It has to do with alternate realities. I'm not an authority on quantum physics but I know enough to understand that there is a strong argument for the existence of an alternate reality. Living in more than one dimension. It's a bit egotistical to think, ours is the only one. There are a myriad of realities. Many that exist here on the planet and then the ones that exist elsewhere. I'm betting, that with all those choices, there's at least one of them within which, life holds outrageously, bizarrely, wonderful experiences. I've decided to shift, lean slightly off my usual center into that frequency of reality and experience there....while here.

By consciously questioning my thought patterns while awake, programming myself before sleep and generally altering my thought patterns and behavior I believe I can experience quite differently. I've already noticed some synchronicities popping up and overall a new fresher awareness and well being and it's not even Wednesday, definitely not Friday.

If anyone else has played with this, I'd enjoy hearing your experiences, I'll let you know how it's working for me, stay tuned.

Leaning into new frequencies......Christie

Conscious Love

The attachment we generally think of as love is an emotion. It arises as a feeling sense, something that comes easily, called up by an anonymous flow of good feelings in reaction to an outside stimulus that has triggered it.
Love is not this knee-jerk reaction to a stimulus. Love is a choice, it's a choice we make each day, each hour, each moment because we've made a decision. We've decided to love not because someone or something has make us feel good, but because we choose to live in a state of love and share it.

We choose love when we see another's soul instead of their personality. When we look through to see the spirit shining through. We see their radiance streaming through the imperfection of their personalities' physical presence.

Waiting for feelings to develop means we are reactors instead of the creators we were meant to be. It's dis-empowering, we begin to believe that forces from outside of us control our wellbeing and circumstances.

Instead the decision to love allows us to step into our inherent role as creators. As designers of our experience we choose love instead of waiting for it to choose us. This gives us a much greater field of possibility and participation. We see others not only as who they seem to be, but for who they truly are. this frees them to open up this this aspect of themselves more fully in our company.

Amazingly, they begin to reveal portions of themselves they had hidden before and we discover that they now engender those automatic feelings of love we thought they could never evoke from us. Often they find themselves bathed in good feelings toward us as well, but that isn't the point.

It's often said that we can't love others until we love ourselves, but it's a conundrum because in reality, we cannot love ourselves until we love others. Because we are them, we are all one in essence.

Choosing to love saves time, we don't need to work on judgement, guilt, blame, we cut right to the chase, we love. These states evaporate in the presence of the fullness of a love based not on emotion but upon choice.

choosing to love is predicated upon the understanding that the face you see before you or the face you see in the mirror is one of many that have been worn. Like a masquerade ball we all show up in our costumes, concealed behind a mask that disguises our true identity.

Choosing to love gives the other permission to take off the mask and allows us to do the same. As we free others from the prison of illusion, through loving consciously, we free ourselves to be the love that we are.

Thanks for listening, I wrote this because I really needed to hear it. I also want to say that although obviously I appreciate appointments and donations but I'm also very appreciative of the communication both spoken and unspoken, the flowing energy I receive from all of you who read this newsletter. It comes to me as ongoing grace I truly feel in my life.
Choosing Love......Christie

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Pain Isn't Polite

Pain isn't polite conversation. I'm new to blogging but am willing to bet it's not politely correct to speak of it here either. People are uncomfortable with pain, their own and others. If you talk about pain in mixed company people begin to squirm a little. It's even worse than talking about politics or religion. Actually for me, pain was a religion, for awhile.

I needed it to be in order to move through it. I needed to look at it, dissect it, yes even wallow in it at first. As a victim of spousal abuse trying to get to freedom with two young children twenty years ago, I needed to feel the pain enough to leave. To be uncomfortable enough not to make excuses to stay. Yet I had to move through it quickly enough to find a way to escape, survive and raise my children. I did.

That was twenty years ago and unlike the battered wife syndome movies on Lifetime, I didn't walk happily off into the sunset, but I lived, quite an accomplishment at the time and even for a long time after.

But this isn't about the circumstances of pain but of pain itself. I mention the circumstances so that I can better explain my position on pain. After a very short period of time I was expected by most people to just "get over it", oh he won't come after you, he's forgotten by now" and on and on. Just for the record, it's been twenty yrs. and detectives employed by him contacted my adult daughter just three years ago. Again, off point, what is the point is that I never felt I was allowed to feel the pain and so completely work through it. It was discounted.

Yes, I went through lots and lots of counseling, which did help, when post traumatic stress syndrome can last for up to seven years and you still jump at loud noises behind you, it's a necessity. Yet it wasn' t enough to be validated for the pain I experienced if I was paying for that validation. So at some point in very close support groups and with close friends, or those I thought were, at the time, I have shared my pain. Much of the time to be shut down and told a variety of things. "Just get over it", that was so long ago, you need to heal, you enjoy being a victim" etc. Mostly it boiled down to, "just don't talk about it to me". In a particular spiritual support group one "spiritual" healer even became angry and very accusatory. I supposed her version of "tough healing". All of that is okay, as long as your pain isn't discounted. Whether it's past pain or present, each of us should be allowed to honor the experience we've encountered with pain. Not hold onto it, not embrace it, but honor that it happened, it was horrible and you've learned from it. Not, you will never ever speak of it to anyone again or you're not healed.

What's funny to me is that I've found several sites by women who have made a career of pain in one form or another, they just don't call it that. Whether it's art or discussion it's pain disguised and so more appropriate because it's couched in language that is indirect of their particular unique experience and so I suppose isn't as offensive. There's nothing wrong with this, in fact I believe it provides wonderful options for many, but let's be honest and call it what it is. This person took their "pain" and now utilize it creatively, but it's still their pain. If you read between the lines or the paint drops, it' still there pain bleeding through and that's okay.

I have no problem with it, it helps others without offending them but what offends me is our general inability to face what we're really talking about and the dishonoring of other's pain because we don't understand it. There are many particularities to pain; disease, divorce, death, abuse. But to the person experiencing it, it hurts, there's no heirarchy of pain worthiness. There's just no way to say, that pain you feel just isn't so bad, there's worse out there. Yep there is, but do you think you just helped alleviate theirs by pointing that out?

So I guess what I'm saying is this, I don't believe we should wallow in our pain, I also don't believe we need to "heal" it. It's a part of our experience, not something to be hidden away and shunned, as though our pain is dirty. We don't need to heal our experiences, they were what they were, they are what they are. We don't even need to heal ourselves so much as we need to honor who we are, what we've experienced and do the same for everyone, really everyone!

Pain isn't polite but it is real, it happens here on the planet, frequently. Yet pain may lead us to learn to navigate with less pain as we learn to traverse our path more steadily with trust. Trust in ourselves and others that we can and will honor everyone's experience with pain without a rating system and without falsity caused by fear. Now I'm not saying we should bring up our pain as cocktail party banter ( does anyone still have these?) I'm speaking of what would be intimate conversation with those close to us. It's not polite to speak of pain because it reminds others of their own, something they may have steadily worked at denying or hidden deep within their depths. Don't dig up yours or theirs.

So at the risk of being severely impolite, I simply propose that we honor one another's pain without inflicting judgment or canned aphorisms. We just listen, fully. We hold the space of honoring the other and their pain, knowing that in doing so we're helping to transform it.